It was like fighting the wind.
It was like trying to rewind the clock.
It was proving your worth every second of your life.
It was thinking that they might understand because they share the same face as I do.
It was my heart racing, every time I laid eyes on another article, video, or tweet.
It was anger, it was fury, it was grief.
It was how little we seemed to care. Another lifeless body, in between the photos on our feeds.
That thing about me that everyone loves so much, seeing the best in people was starting to fade.
Because I was letting go of how I wanted the world to be, now seeing it for how it is.
A sickness that’s embedded in this land.
It is the ego of man.
It is the envy, it’s sin.
I pray to God because he lives within.
He tells me that they are all safe in his arms.
He tells me that that there is no longer any suffering that they must endure.
He tells me that it’s sweet, he tells me to hug myself and to love deeply.
For how could I assume anything that’s beautiful is mine. For it is a gift from the one, who I love more than life.
So I will give this gift of light to all, whether they are friendly or unkind.
They will feel his light and freedom will ring like bells upon high
Because it is his greatest wish, for us to find it.
For with love, we are free.